wa... yesterday i was so emo until i can't really work well... as if i'm another person... some ppl know i'm a person who is very "feeling" de... well, what to do... i'm trying to change that too... affect mi on alot of ways.... haiz.... starting to think negative things and so on... thats why i dun like... maybe also because i got not enough sleep... cos yesterday i woke up at 5... cos i have lesson on 7... practical lesson... trying to get my licence... hmm... dunno why now adays why i keep on feeling empty inside... i guess i have been working too much.. ended up i feel like i got no much true friends... or even no friends... to be the fact, even to my church friends... i wanna get REALLY close with them, but, i can't... this feeling is like, even though we might know each other well, it will never be like my buddy, sheng that close... i really wanna get really close to them... but its like, in christ, we are brothers and sisters... but we cannot be as close as brother and sister... cos we can't really understand each other... like some of them say... we all come from diff background... i come from so call a term i called "ah beng" background.... and to mi after so long, i still think them as i called the "guai guai" background for most of them... haiz... really headache... alamak! negative again liao la!!! haiz....