this few days i have been thinking... i'm kinda mess up my life... realise that i'm not being myself... haiz... kinda mess up... need to do a soul search on myself... for my bro and sis in church, and my sisters(da jie) and my bros, who saw my blog, that i wanna say to u all, i'm ok, i just need to search my old mi... kinda empty inside...

WTH... dunno what should i do... my bro in need of cash for some mistakes that he have done... but i dunno how to help him... not enough money to help him... and i was thinking that besides cash, what else i could do to help... then again... sometimes i was thinking... i dun really believe money can buy happiness... but without money, is a never thing to mi... i can have not enough to save, but i cannot have not enough to spend... WTH... i'm so confuse now... what should i do???!!! even sometimes i suspect myself... "i can have, not enough to save, but i cannot have not enough to spend..." but again... i have the money, but sometimes i just dun feel like helping ppls out... why??? why am i doing this???!!! AM I SELFISH??? should i step out??? think outside the box??? like what??? haiz...

nothing much to say actually... recently alot of blessing has come upon mi, also bad things happening too... ya... as usual... my and my dad... haiz... today quarrel again... saying that i put the things too heavy and cos the wheel of the trolly spoil... but pls... previously already wanna spoil liao lor... and even if the thing, ya... i cos it to spoil... so what??? none of my business... everytime got this kinda problem de... alittle small small thing wanna quarrel... nothing will come out good from his mouth when he is talking to mi... haiz... haiz... dunno la... seems like nothing i can do to please him... like everything i'm doing is wrong to his sight... haiz... nothing to say la... dun feel like saying anything... no mood la... just making mi more pest off... haiz...