wa... yesterday i was so emo until i can't really work well... as if i'm another person... some ppl know i'm a person who is very "feeling" de... well, what to do... i'm trying to change that too... affect mi on alot of ways.... haiz.... starting to think negative things and so on... thats why i dun like... maybe also because i got not enough sleep... cos yesterday i woke up at 5... cos i have lesson on 7... practical lesson... trying to get my licence... hmm... dunno why now adays why i keep on feeling empty inside... i guess i have been working too much.. ended up i feel like i got no much true friends... or even no friends... to be the fact, even to my church friends... i wanna get REALLY close with them, but, i can't... this feeling is like, even though we might know each other well, it will never be like my buddy, sheng that close... i really wanna get really close to them... but its like, in christ, we are brothers and sisters... but we cannot be as close as brother and sister... cos we can't really understand each other... like some of them say... we all come from diff background... i come from so call a term i called "ah beng" background.... and to mi after so long, i still think them as i called the "guai guai" background for most of them... haiz... really headache... alamak! negative again liao la!!! haiz....

life now adays are abit more peaceful i can say... now adays work, cycling, or else at home only... just fix up a brand new bike, but i afraid i will be selling off soon... its not that this current bike not good... but cos i'm more of a extreme person when i'm on my bike... ya... so i was thinking, instead of fixing myself, i think i most prob trading what i have and buy another then from there improve... cos my current bike cannot fix a disc brake if you guys understand what i'm saying... so well, safety come first... ya...

but first, my mei mei birthday around the corner... so i gonna do something about it... so need money... so her's first... then follow by mine... erm... well... should be... :P

wa... today i chiong my work like slave for work... instead of opp... haiz... what to do... in oder for mi tml to have a easy day...

actually i wanna take leave tml de... but father's fren taking so i can't... abit fed up with that... cos i actually meeting mei mei de... sian half.. haiz... wonder what thing will i be doing tml... going to bed now... chao...

what a day... today weather damn hot also... cannot tahan hot de mi... and body also hitti le... going to fall sick soon... as mei mei to get flu medication also... my whole body abit numb also... sian half... haiz... abit empty inside also... sian sian sian...

wa liao... today ask my father fren is it that he take leave this sat... and i realise he was actually taking it on friday... sian... i cannot meet my beloved ling er liao... haiz... sob... :( mei mei, sorry... i cannot take off this week le... :(

ling er gg to write a compo tdy
Topic : my best fren
My best fren is yilong kor kor coz he will bring my fav vit c robert to nursey everyday wrapped in a tissue. He will let me choose 1st n take e remaining one. Tat's y he's my best fren'The end (sound familiar yea?) LOLx

Luv, Ling er

yilong kor kor not creative enough but still have to write...
topic: my best fren
my best fren is my ling er,
my ling er is my cousin...
my beloved ling er mei mei...
i like to chat/play/hang around with her...
have not been contacting her from pri until now... abit regret... but i'm glad... that we are still as what we use to be in nursery... able to open up to each other... miss those days... if only we can turn back the clock... things might be able to improve even better... :)

luv yilong kor kor

now is 2.24am... chating with my cousin on msn... as i can't sleep... then my jie(sally) say because of mi, she put lesser graphic on her blog so ask mi to update mine also... haiz... what to do... have to update lor... 3 things happen just yesterday and today... my fren carol, her birthday today... but is also the day i felt disappointed my her... she ask mi to go to her chalet today... but in the end, i did not go... why??? cos of some stupid things... she wants mi to go her chalet... but i told her i cannot buy her present as i short of cash... then she say no such thing as own present.... she sound so serious like can say i dun come also can... but present must come... i was like... haiz... i yesterday still got go and see what to buy for her... and i saw a watch... that i think suit her... was like thinking, once i got my pay, then i buy for her... but the way she msg mi and tell mi all those things was like... omg... is it worth money to buy this kinda friendship... haiz... so disappoint... haiz...

then 2nd things... which was today... i quarrel with my cousin and he msg mi no more buddy... which is like fine with mi lor... the thing happens like this... we went to east coast cycling... then we went to food court... then he place his bicycle on a place where he block the ppl who help us to cleans the table... then the uncle say who bike is this??? then i was like oh... we block the uncle working place... so i move my bike away first... then my cousin start with a foul word "hey, cb, help mi to move my bike lei..." i was like, WTH! you got no hands and legs to move yourself huh??? then he say talk back... "i siting, you stand help mi to move will die is it???" then i reply... "i'm moving my bike ma... wait can or not..." then start quarrel... the thing is, why is it that he have to start and end with foul words like CB, KNN, all this words??? so end up i ignore him and i just cycle back home... then he say no more buddy.... which is fine with mi...

last was my half brother... drink until sober then come home.. which is the main thing why i have not sleep... cos of him... he quarrel with dad just now... and say alot of things... my dad dun want mi to interfere with it and so as my mom... cos i use to be like that too... "my heart was like telling mi, you use to be like that... you have no right to say anything to your brother..." which makes mi ended up cannot sleep... haiz... jie... this is all i have to say... :P

oh god... i really need you to be in my life to help mi go through the journey with mi... hope the advantage does not stop here... lord, pls... thing have been very rough for mi this months... pls be with mi and assist mi...